10-10-10

R.I.P. My Grandfather

My grandfather pass away on October 10, 2010 (10-10-2010) he is 83 nearly 84

I'm really shock. everything around me was dark. I went to granddad's house

with my cousin >_< I can't hold back my tears when I met dead body TAT

everyone cry and sad but someone no cry no sad...I hate her!!!...(she is aunt)

last week she scold my mom and my grandma about land

she need it and don't need to shared -_-; she shout "if dad die this here is mine"

My granddad hear that he's sorrowful...and now he pass away

Fucking aunt you will going to hell.

I'm help my family about funeral my arm and shoulder hurt so much

I take medicine but still hurt *sob* T_T this year I get sad and cry a lot

I'm tired but I can't sleep again. I'm think too much about my life

when I'm alone I'm scared of myself the past come back to hurt me

I need to stop but how to ?? I really don't know...

my friend told me ...coming soon you will suicide again -_-;

maybe not you wrong! although I ever suicide but I don't want to did it again


To Pal
if you don't see me in your life don't wondering if I feel better I will meet you
again but now I can't control my mind and my feeling
so sorry if I annoy you sometime I'm scared you hate me.